You know those assignments from high school or whenever where the teacher asks you to write a letter to your past self, talking about what you wish you had known then, what you know now? This is basically that letter to my former self. I can’t even begin to explain, but I’m going to try.
I will be the first to admit that I had a terrible time in high school. To be perfectly honest, I would do anything to forget most of that time. It wasn’t always like that, but it only takes the words of a few “popular” people to make everything change. [Following the word of a few people is a whole other problem in itself, though]. People always say that your time high school would be the best years of your life. I hope to God that those were not my best years, because life would only go downhill from there. Which brings to mind all the laughs I can get from those people that peaked during those four years…
The last 1.5 years I was in high school were miserable. I wish I was exaggerating. I made the mistake of letting the perceptions people spread about me carry over with me to college. I had let what everyone said about me become internalized. I didn’t realize it, but I still felt like I didn’t always belong. Because of a few crappy people in high school, my years in college were probably not as memorable as everyone claims college to be. It makes me really sad that a handful of irrelevant and miserable people dictated so much of how I lived my life and how i felt about myself.
Now that I’m in nursing school though, things are different; much different. I finally left behind those negative feelings and it’s truly spectacular how different I feel. For once, I don’t feel like I’m constantly being judged or I need to be someone I’m not. Rather than being known for negative publicity, people know my name because I’m just being me.
I just want it to be known that high school will not be the best time of your life. Your life truly begins when you find the place you truly belong. It could be somewhere you never expected to end up or where you have worked toward reaching for many years. But more importantly, people will always be mean and bring down others just to make themselves feel better. Ignore them. They don’t matter. Their lives are peaking, while you’re only just getting started.
Say goodbye to your high school self, and say hello to your real world self.