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longest. week. of my life.

You guys. I’m not even kidding you. This has been the hardest and longest week of my entire life. Nursing school is so rough. I knew it was going to be time consuming and mentally / physically exhausting, but I was so not prepared for just how true that is.

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In all honesty, it’s so worth it though. I’m loving all the things I’m learning and getting to know the other students along the way. I think the reading is the most daunting thing. I have never seen so many gigantic books for one semester. Professors be like, “Bring these three books to class” and I’m like, “How am I supposed to carry all of those?!” I wish I was exaggerating.

Of course, with my luck, I’m assigned to one of the two groups that are supposed to give a presentation on the second week of the semester. The same week I’m packing and moving to the new apartment! What luck! I shouldn’t be that surprised, I pretty much have the worst luck ever when it comes to those kinds of things. What can you do. Back in the day I would get all bent out of shape about it, but I’m getting way better about just accepting it and rolling with the punches.

So let’s see… I found out I’m really, really good at restraining people. And putting on sterile gloves! That’s pretty exciting, if I must say so myself. For all the fears I had about failing at everything, at least I can say I’m good at something or other. Even though I wouldn’t be doing a lot of restraining in the Labor and Delivery (L&D, for future reference) department [I don't think?].

Anyways. I’m so sorry I haven’t been around all week. It has been an action packed week and I’m not sure I would have even gotten to eat if it weren’t for my amazing boyfriend. He has to go on a business trip in a few weeks and he’s kinda worried I will forget to eat [and I don't really blame him, I'm a little worried too]. I was straddling the line of a mental break down last Sunday, and he talked me back down and off the edge. I forget that I can’t look at the big picture because that will add so much unnecessary stress, but to look at the day or week ahead [thank you to my sweet Godmother who texted me Friday morning to remind me that]. I can’t finish this adventure in my life if I don’t take it a day / week at a time, you know? I’m so thankful for him that there are no words. I don’t even know that I have expressed that well enough to him. But he’s my rock. There are four things that I believe will get me through nursing school: the boyfriend, my faith, my family / friends, and a lot of Starbucks venti unsweetened iced coffee with milk [but I add three Splenda and a splash of half&half]. I know it’s normally three things, but I like the number four better. 

I think Saturday / Sunday will probably my blogging days, as much as I dislike leaving y’all hanging for the whole week. Maybe after this semester, I will be able to post more often. I might even be able to every now and then this semester, but no promises. There will certainly be a lot to share on the weekends, that’s for sure! For now, I’m off to go study. Shocker, right?

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Oh HEY. I’m a nursing student!

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Yeah you read that correctly. I’m officially one week into my first semester of nursing school! And this is what I’m already dealing with…

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You are seeing that correctly. Five books for a five-week summer session. One is so big that I swear it weighs more than a small child. So far my schedule hasn’t been too hectic, but I have a very strong feeling that will be changing in September when the Fall semester begins. It’s daunting. There are no words. [I know someone who recently graduated. She told me her friend ended up in the hospital with heart palpitations because of the stress! OMGOSH.]

Somehow I always forget how much better writing out thoughts/feelings/mindless rambles makes me feel. I don’t understand myself sometimes. Does that even make any sense? I feel like I’m always saying that; sorry! But it’s true. I just keep forgetting. I’m definitely going to try to post at least once a week. Something interesting is bound to happen that doesn’t break any confidentiality laws. I’ve been trying to find a way to make sure I hold myself to this promise. Any ideas?

Well on the first day of class, we were asked to state what our worst fears were going into nursing school. Mine was that I’m afraid I’m going to be terrible at everything and just fail. I get that they wanted us to bond and whatever, but was a conversation about self-doubt really necessary on the  f i r s t  day? I don’t think so. But then I saw something on Instagram that made everything seem a little less worrisome…

How perfect is that? I have faith in God’s glorious plan for me. I’m confident that nursing school is the destiny He set out for me. But doubt is the Devil’s plaything. I just have to remind myself that if this isn’t what He wants for me, then life will change, and I have to be okay with that. I have the support of some amazing Godly people who will help me when changes seem impossible. So for now, my motto is this: Just have faith. I think I can manage that one.

inspiration // “Those whose steps are guided by the Lord, whose ways God approves, may stumble, but they will never fall, for the Lord God holds their hand.” ~ Psalm 37:23-24

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